Wednesday, July 26, 2006

as much as i love the internet

as much as i love the internet i must say that it sucks. i am trying to finish an online class but now the site is down, during finals week. i should have finished it when i said i would, then this wouldnt be a problem. anywho, my new thought:

what brings you the most joy will bring you the most pain! isnt there a quote like this already? i fetched it out of my brain the other day.

the second poem

amongst the paperbacks


i sit you on the shelf
next to "the raven"
next to "the color purple"
next to "possessing the secret of joy"
and next to "the stand"
there you can sit in what you shall collect
never to be read again
never again will those characters that played a role in giving you your new found home will live within
if i take you down i will have lost my place
and will have to begin anew

new poem

i got the feeling last night and now i have two poems to share. i dont rem. the last time i was able to finish a poem so enjoy!

bedtime

bedtime
preparation time
prepare myself for what dreams may come
i no longer fantasize
or cause myself to dream of you and i
now i live my days over
in a way i might have wished they would have gone
i do all those thoughts that i did not take action on
perhaps i should sleep instead of live
the dreams turn out better
i am my own fetter
i hope i never write another letter
those things that reoccur
i prefer the change
bang my head on the frame
not from the sex but from the regrets
i wake up upset
to discover these good things don't really exist
i assist
in the mission to make them really exist

Saturday, July 22, 2006

PIRATES

PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN DEAD MAN'S CHEST


ONE WORD: JOHNNY! Two cute guys in one film. I enjoyed this sequel. The film is long but not long enough for me to want the end to come sooner. I don't remember the first film at all. This film def. had way more happening. Captain Jack........... Is it me or does he seem a bit metro (in swagger not in hygiene)? Kiera Knightly annoyed me a bit in the film. Well, go see it. I say it'll make for a nice evening.

4 and a half stars

Sunday, July 16, 2006

hahaha

life is very funny! is funny a good word. when life stresses you, you find out why is this stress in your life and you get rid of it. thats the goal get rid of the stress. struggle is unavoidable and stress can be too, but it is the surplus of it that can be controlled. control your substances ladies and gentlemen control your substances.

Friday, July 14, 2006

super annoyed

i feel like choking someone. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i hate school so much.
i mean what do you really have to do to get what you want out of life. lie, steal, kill, cheat, bitch bitch bitch. damn!
i will admit i havent put forth extreme effort to succeed. the main reason is because i've learned when i put my all into something i get back nothing. (not in every case)
ok enough stressing over this.

it's crazy im panicking b/c of the turning 25 thing. what have i done with my life? just getting my degree. no career, not married, barely even really had a bf before. i've grown a lot. i've cleaned my life of unnecessary people. everyone seems to put me down. yeah hello i know i dont have a job, i know i dont have a man, i know i am about be 25. duh! i also know that i cant deal with you stressing me on top of the stress i already have. so dont get mad when i snap on you cause your in my face. we all have problems, you're not the only one.

anyways, i am trying to figure out what to do with my livejournal. maybe i will do the film reviews there and the rants and stuff here. actually maybe i can use that one to touch on the politics too. that sounds good.
lata

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

attack

ATTACK OF THE ANXIETY MONSTER

I need a lot of things to work in my favor right now. So much to do before December.(that's the new theme)
My mission is to piss everyone off until I can get what I want. The bitchy people get ahead in life. Is being a bitch so bad? Give me my degree you bastards before I have to cut somebody!

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

i like yellowcard

i must admit i like yellowcard. i mean the lead is off-key often not on record though but i enjoy their lyrics. did he have vocal surgery? plus i mean they have a guy who plays the electric violin. plus i love the song only one.
ok that's it


quote

"Since a musician cannot otherwise move people, but he be moved himself, so he must necessarily be able to induce in himself all those affects which he would arouse in his auditors; he conveys his feelings to them, and thus most readily moves them to sympathetic emotions."

(Carl Philip Emanuel Bach)

Monday, July 03, 2006

CARTOONS

EFF FAMILY GUY!
I JUST WATCHED THIS EPISODE LAST NIGHT. PETER WAS TELLING HIS FAMILY HISTORY AND PETER EXPLAINED THAT HIS FAMILY HISTORY STARTED IN AFRICA AND THEN ALL THE CHARACTERS OF THE SHOW WERE COLORED BROWN AND DRESSED TO LOOK LIKE AFRICANS. THEN THEY WERE ON A SLAVE SHIP AND BROUGHT TO AMERICA. THEN HIS ANCESTOR SLEEPS WITH THE SLAVE MASTERS DAUGHTER. WHAT THE HELL? I MEAN THERE HAVE BEEN SEVERAL JOKES THAT MADE ME SAY HEY, BUT WHAT WERE THEY THINKING THIS TIME.

THAT MAKES ME THINK ABOUT CHEF/ ISAAC HAYES LEAVING SOUTH PARK BECAUSE OF THE SCIENTOLOGY(that looks right) EPISODE. AFTER MANY YEARS OF RACIAL JOKES AND AFTER HE WAS PLAYING A POOR REPRESENTATION OF A BLACK MAN FOR YEARS.

I CANT EVEN WATCH BOONDOCKS SINCE THE FIRST FEW EPISODES SUCKED. I MEAN HOW CAN I REALLY ENJOY THE POLITICAL SLIDE-INS WHEN I HEAR CURSE WORDS AND RACIAL EPITHETS EVERY OTHER WORD.

BRING BACK STATIC SHOCK. I WANT MORE BLACK SUPERHEREOS.